A Dream to Change My Life:

As I was reading a book last night, Holy Spirit reminded me of a dream He had given me nearly 3 years ago that changed my heart in several ways. It was around 3a.m. in the middle of the summer, when I found myself being jolted awake.

Still very vivid in my mind, I can remember me standing in an old classroom just like in middle school. The desks were all nicely in rows, and in between the rows were 2 lines of people, some from my past, some people I didn't know, and some I recently met. The lines were facing the chalk board and at the head of both lines there were Angel's facing toward the lines. Each angel pointed either to the right or the left every time a person approached them, and that's the way the person went directly after. I was super confused and also super worried about the unknown of what was happening.

I started asking people around me...why are we in line?! Where are the Angel's pointing?! Why are the people going there?! What does all this mean?! With each person that stepped up and then went away, I got closer, and as i got closer, i got more and more terrified. With a few people left, I learned that the Angel's were pointing one way for heaven and one way for hell. (Not saying it's the angels choice where people go, bc it's not, and that's not the point of the dream). As I stepped closer and closer, I had never been so terrified in my life. It was my turn, but before the Angel could raise it's arm, I jolted awake.

My heart never raced so fast, and hurt so much, physically feeling the panic, anxiety, worry, and pain. As I was sitting up and very much conscious, I knew that God was telling me that I wasn't right with Him. (If I was, there would be no reason to be afraid!) That my relationship with Him didn't really exist. I had a sense of urgency that I never had before. Having that worry, that unsureness, that terrified and urgent response woke my soul up to the fact that I didn't know where I was headed for eternity. That I didn't know my Abba Father!

I repented right then and there asking for forgiveness. Asking God to assist me, to show me what to do next, and YWAM was splashed across my mind. During my current state in life I was pursuing "Strength and Conditioning/Athletic Performance" to work with athletes and help people be their best, physically. I wanted the job, the money, the knowledge, the recognition of working with high level athletes. But after that dream, all of that seemed like it didn't matter too much anymore. It doesn't matter. In fact, it is meaningless. If it isn't done WITH the LORD, and FOR Him, it is meaningless. We were made to live life WITH our Creator. FOR our Creator! If we aren't doing that, what are we doing?!

Those $$$ bills ain't going with you when you die, and your name will be forgotten in a generation or 2. I'd rather live an eternity with the ONE Who molded me perfectly, and loves me no matter what!

Pursue JESUS!! Do life WITH & FOR Him! It is more worth it than any other decision you could ever make! The decision is eternity!